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I’m sorry for you loss. It seems like she really motivated you to be yourself. That was some badass shit you pulled at the bar.

Oh, that sounds awesome! I think that the general aesthetic that Dreamcast games have is unmatched, probably would be the one system I mod.

Thank you! That was a lesson I had to learn the hard way, but I think I’m finally there.

TROGDOOOOOOR! TROGDOOOOOOOOOOR!

Thank you for giving such a throrough response, there’s a lot for me to respond to here!

I don’t think my name is very me, so I’m probably going to change it. I used to go by Citra but that was more of an alter-ego, a less “normal” name, rooted in self-denial, that I used while crossdressing in college. I don’t think I care about getting gendered or named correctly. It’s extremely gratifying, yes, but I don’t think being deadnamed or using the wrong pronouns will bother me, which I honestly think is a healthy, even necessary, view to have as a trans woman because it’s gonna happen.

I love hearing your positive stories about those early transition growing pains, I’m so grateful to have such a human take on transitioning right now. I already have moments like that, and I really think that the awkwardness of not knowing exactly how it’s done at first is an endearing aspect of not just transitioning, but being human as well.

I’m equally excited and scared to start living as a woman. I know women (not to mention those of the trans persuasion) have so many problems that I not only don’t experience firsthand as man, but are also often concealed from my gaze entirely. But I’m so ready for that. Challenges are challenges, and people are sexist and transphobic, but I hope it will be more fulfilling to actually be going through a woman’s struggle than it will be difficult.

Personally, I don’t think bottom surgery is something I’m interested in or need to feel like a woman. It scares me a tad bit, and I’m not sure the procedure itself has advanced enough to the point where I’d be comfortable with it even if it was something that I felt I needed. Losing sexual pleasure is really something to which I’m averse. Not that I would ever try to tell someone else that it’s wrong for them or wrong in general, those are just my feeling on the matter. I don’t want to force you to wallow in your what ifs and regrets, but I was wondering if you had any other things you wished you had done differently so that I might be able to apply your advice to my own journey?

Obviously the physical stuff like softer hair and skin wasn’t completely there pre-transition; but, on the topic of the parts of your personality that you said you now love, do you think those aspects were always part of you or driven by your journey into womanhood? If they were always part of you, were they something that you viewed negatively while living as a man?

Thank you so much again for your thoughtful response. I already feel immediately included by this community, and it’s heartwarming.

Fucking awesome. I love my Dreamcast, but it stopped reading discs recently :/