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Hey there, first of all, calm down. Sexauality and Gender is weird and everyone has different experiences of their own gender kinks etc. Being into some kind of kink, like sissy hypno porn or transformation porn doesn’t make you trans, BUT a few trans femm people I’ve talked to, including myself have had similar experiences regarding our own sexuality.

Roughly two years ago when I was 23, I was in a similar place, where I suddenly realized that my kinks might be much more than kinks and it really confused and scared me. Because I had suppressed my own gender and sexuality and didn’t allow myself to experience attraction to other women, because it made me feel like a man, it all came crashing down for me when I started questioning things.

A really helpful Article I found explained a lot of my experiences, maybe it helps you as well: https://medium.com/@kemenatan/its-just-a-fetish-right-91cb0a4e261 What you need to know is the following:

• It’s okay to be kinky
• It’s okay to be trans
• What do you want?

The last thing is the hardest. And you can only know this if you play around. If you want to figure out if you are trans femm, or non-binary or cis-male or anything else, you need to play around with your gender expression and find similar people. See what fits you, see what makes you happy. Try different pronouns, try makeup etc., seek out other queer people, they will always accept gender questioning people, or maybe join a kink meetup.

And if you just find out, that these things make you really horny but you don’t want this in your day to day life, that’s totally fine. And if you find out that you want to start hormones that’s also okay. And if you are on hormones and want to stop that’s also okay. Don’t ask yourself “am I really trans?”, ask what you want. Do I want to be perceived as woman (or non-binary person)? Or something else? Hang in there, questioning your gender is super scary, but it will geht better.

And feel free to ask further questions :)

Heya, your profile pic is super cute, I live it :3 Where is it from a show?

Whats ur impression?

Thanks :)

Thank you! Good luck with the novel :)

That’s what I’m thinking about. I want to learn to do random stuff with enjoyment rather than getting good at specific things. And I’m unsure whether this can be achieved with discipline

Can you give an example of an activity where it worked for you and how you kept at it?

Its not that much about what I should be doing, rather finding hobbies I want to do intrinsically. Or do you say, that in the morning I should create Lists of hobbies that I want to do today until I want to do them intrinsically?

So how did you learn it? What do you do to be disciplined?

So you set a deadline of doing taxes in spring and then get other stuff done?