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I tried to have blogs back in the day. People were not terribly interested, and the prospect of having to cultivate being-known so that anyone will see the thing I found unpleasant. It’s strange to think how many people are very driven to promote themselves. Self-promotion feels dirty, and writing for no one feels foolish.
I saw a television episode on Youtube once where a guy went back because there was the girl he didn’t get when he was around 17. She had been so built up with the glow of memory, but then seeing her again with adult eyes, she was like a kid to him. Pretty girl, but someone whose memory he could move on from now.
Maybe Back Then would be less of a nebulous, mysterious thing to think over if I had photos or video from back then. No photos or video? Must have been real horse-and-buggy days.
I was fascinated by Usenet, having grown up so isolated, but I was too scared to post. I was at university, and I think my biggest fear was that fellow students there would see my posts and take them as an opportunity to bully me.
I’m old enough to have experienced some of the analog days, but we were too rural and poor for me to participate online.
I read an article in some magazine back in the day where the author talked about using email, and it did sound so amazing. And then when I eventually had internet access, yeah, when I traded emails with someone in Italy, mind-blowing. I thought the internet would make everyone outgrow small-mindedness!
I suspect cloud storage would have sounded old-fashioned and “mainframe” at the time.
Even though I was too poor and rural for internet services, I am old enough to remember the analog days, and this is very interesting what you’re saying about the narrow perspective and then broadening it.
Like I remember the nightly national news on television and accepting it in the way of a kid who’s bright but hasn’t seen anything of the world very far from his house. Maybe the wider world seemed like something that happened only on television. Whatever Tom Brokaw said seemed like probably what was happening out there.
But I think I would have expected at least a Southern cop to fuck anyone over whom he didn’t know, and we knew that cops liked to sit at the bottom of a hill with an unexpected speed limit and ticket the public all day.
I can remember being a little bit aware of adbusters in the late 90s (IIRC, they were trying to sell something called black spot sneakers, and I kind of suspected they were just being like any company except with different rhetoric), can remember seeing that there was some company called Loompanics (I think) that sold every kind of crazy book. I knew that alt.2600 existed, but I didn’t really understand it.
But, beyond that, I don’t think I recall the broadening as clearly as you do. There was probably a good bit of waking up that I didn’t do until the 2000 election happened, saw how the people around me regarded it, etc.
I’ve never heard of Spin! I’ll watch it now.
Been accumulating books from little free libraries but not started reading any. Brought my sourdough starter back to normal. Tried letting cinnamon rolls rise overnight. Looked into Mastodon but it doesn’t appeal to me at all.