I dono… I just always wanted to be normal, not rely on a drug that gives me undesirable side effects, and if I forget to take it, I have a terrible day.

I’m still trying to learn to fit in every day, and it’s hard. I still slip up, and have my days some times. It’s not going away either, but this is how I choose to do it

denial swimming in a sauce of selfneglect, selfabuse and alcoholism

I’m not sure I follow.