i am very open to conversations ~
EDIT: it seems many people don’t know what a “system prompt” is. that’s understandable and totally normal <3
here's a short explanation (CW: ai shid, but written by me)
The system prompt is what tells an LLM (Large Language Model) like ChatGPT and Llama how to behave, what to believe and what to expect from the user. So “rewriting peoples system prompts” means: overriding peoples views of me.
with this context, the funi pic should be more understandable, where the two text boxes represent peoples “system prompts” before and after my potential transition.
feel free to ask stuff in the comments or message me. i care somewhat about this ai stuff so yea (but i obv don’t like peeps using it to generate dum meaningless articles and pictures)
thanksies!! <3 i’m working on it! keep thinking eh this isn't so bad but then i see real girlies in real life or trans cuties on the not-real-life internet and i go aaah right, now i remember: bad feels exist… i have my next therapy session on the 16th and imma prepare some stuffs to say… and then probably forget about them or not feel strong enough to break out chain of words and say my thingsies …
i gotta stop making posts where you feel the need to make me feel better >~<
also - ! how are you moderator here - ! - - ! TWICE!!!=!=?? - ?!
not that i mind seeing u twice but why are u here twice? isn’t one version of u enough? or do u do that so u can have funi comment-conversations with urself so people have some funi to look at? (i like that idea :) )
I switched over to mostly using a blahaj.zone account, but didn’t remove my .world account. I figured it might be helpful for one of the mods to see downvotes, but the whole account seems glitched, so I’ll probably end up removing it at some point.
Edit: also, you could write down what you want to say so you don’t get sidetracked in session. It’s helped me stay on track :)
aaah i see, that makes sense. yes, seeing downvotes makes sense i think.
also - i already do write stuffs down, and i did two times in a row for the therapy stuffs. but then, when actually talking, the tharapist seems to like to lead the conversation somewhat, which has indeed resulted in some good output, so i always feel like i gotta hop on for the ride instead of putting my own things in there…
No therapist should really be doing that. There have been numerous cautionary tales of implanted memories and people misdiagnosed because the therapist only saw what they wanted to see. They’re supposed to help you solve problems, not tell you what to do. I’m of the belief that they cannot help you directly, only get you to help yourself.
As far as the outputs go, I don’t have confidence in you getting anywhere without confronting this directly. You appear to already see yourself as transfem. You hate being a boy and love being a girl, but you seem to think there’s something more to being trans than that.
I can only reflect on my own experience and knowledge, but as someone who was stuck there, it’s not a good place to be. I thought there was an alternative, but there really wasn’t. Transition was an indispensable part of moving forward, even though it was scary and I had a lot of doubts. The doubts were not more real by virtue of going against what I wanted to believe.
It was always going to be a leap of faith; even though I had narrowed the gap as much as possible, it still took everything I had. I thought it wasn’t a brave step, as once I took it, it was so obviously the right one. Logically, I had nothing left to lose, as I had no future as a man. However, I needed to fully accept that truth, which was a bigger push than I realized at the time. The bravery wasn’t in facing the world as a trans person, but in loving and accepting myself as a trans person. That was harder than anything the world can throw at me.
