I mean I’m supposed to be on Prozac (ran out, can’t afford copay for refill appointment), and I take Wellbutrin. Both work better than zero, but they’re not enough. Without them, I wouldn’t be applying for work, doing any of my hobbies, or even writing on Lemmy.

What changed over the past few years is that I went back to school and had to quit my day job, which means no more “adult money”. Everything else follows from that. If, and only if, I can secure a source of “adult money”, then I will get better. Really, this is a special case of the general reality that life in America is intentionally miserable if you have no money.

I have an engineering degree so I should be able to get a job before the end of the year, but I’ve applied for about 100 jobs and only gotten two interviews.

After I get a job and move into a sustainable career path, I’ll consider talking to a therapist about my medications.