Hi, as the title says I’m a new developer and some days ago I was diagnosed. My diagnose journey started because I’m unable to be consistent (That’s not something new) and it is making me really depressed.
I just spend all day doing nothing and some day I just write most of what I have should written. Some days I force myself to code just to see all letters as blurry meaningless symbols and then I come back to square one where I procrastinate. Now I’m working from home, but when I go to office this gets 10 times worse.
I will be making an appointment to get medications soon, but does anyone have some additional ways to fight this?
EDIT: Thanks everyone that responded the call for help! To people that resonate with this post, please read these comments, all of them are really useful.
Update: All this post started because of a deadline i was having serious problems to reach.
If you are in the same spot as a new dev: What happened to me was that I was facing a really complex issue in which we lacked a lot of information and when I started to ask some key questions everything started to flow again, my main blocker was communication.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I should have focused on understanding rather than trying to solve.
My problem is more the actual motivation (executive dysfunction really) than memory, I can usually look back at what I was doing enough to pick it back up later. I try to add things to a notepad on my phone when I remember it exists and I should do it, but having things written down doesn’t seem to have a ton of impact on whether or not it will be completed. I don’t really understand how this helps you get the motivation to actually do these things, but it probably depends on what it is we each struggle with. How does memory keep you motivated? By reminding you of why you care about doing something maybe?
Try to get a dopamine fix early in the day, not something extra, like going to a gym, but change something like taking a hard fast walk to work or local shop for bread/ milk instead of a car.
Spent a large portion of my life riding motorbikes hard, adhd didn’t bother me until I couldn’t ride bikes.
I struggle with doing anything beyond the bare necessities to get out the door in the morning before work, cause night person in a day world. But I do have the very brisk morning walks when I’m running a few minutes late (often). At work I have extrinsic motivation so that’s usually fine, but doing things to take care of my life self and growth after work I am often pretty useless. Do you think trying to get dopamine up again after work?
Often it’s most efficient for me to to just slide right into chores when I get home without losing my work vibe/fast state, but it’s tiring, and tends to push eating and drinking down the priority list even further… I feel just poorly balanced in general. But I’m not medicated or even properly diagnosed, just strongly suspected and waiting for my assessment in the next few months.
I mean, if motivation is the problem not much can help with that.
But in my case, its memory. I literally cannot consistently remember what I’m doing. So that’s what the system is there for… at least solving the memory problem.
My psychology teacher points out that habits are very different from higher-level brain stuff. You might not be able to solve the motivation problem per se, but you can at least grow a habit to work off the list consistently. Building new habits is something well within the means of everybody (even those with physical damage to their brains who have lost a fair amount of functions). So “trust in habits”.
Habits aren’t motivation. But they’re still something that (if you build up and work at it), will consistently get you to check that list over-and-over again each day. And that’s enough. But its not easy to build a habit. And remember, habits aren’t motivation, they aren’t memory, they aren’t… a lot of things. They’re just that, a habit. That nagging feeling that you should do something (like closing a door when you leave your house. You’ve gained the habit, right? I’m sure you’ve failed before at it, but ADD / ADHD folk can gain habits)
Yes, it’s true the few things I have habits for are the ones I can do pretty consistently, not 100% of course, and sometimes I get the feeling after I already walked out the door and have to go back and check lol. I do agree that habits and schedules and stuff can be really good for people with adhd but they are also really difficult to self- impose. I used to have a sticky note posted in my house somewhere prominent to remind me of some things I should do every day, like drink water, but eventually it gets moved or passed over or I’m in a hurry a few days in a row and it’s gone. I’m not trying to be defeatist, I know there are strategies to help, and I appreciate any and all advice, as I’m definitely in need of some changes.
