My existence. Iād rather not celebrate Christmas, although preferably any other holiday as well. But I especially hate Christmas. Iād rather just keep going on as usual.
My momās a hoarder, so first thing is finding some space that will be enough for a Christmas tree in all that trash. That 2 decades old tree that will soon have no more plastic to shed really fits into that atmosphere. Then remove trash from table to put food there.
My parents will then pretend to be a moderately happy family for the next 2-3 days before returning to ānormalā. (They canāt get a divorce ābecause God forbids itā)
Thereās also the aspect of mandatory gifts. I donāt know what you want, you donāt know what I want. We could both save money (and generate less waste) by leaving that out. I donāt want anything. Itās by far worse to deal with unnecessary gifts than simply nothing.
Decorations. Why? Itās everywhere. Blinking lights, glitter, chains and whatnot. Just another thing to deal with, another thing to spend money on, more waste produced.
Music. Itās like 3 songs on repeat the whole Christmas. Everywhere I go.
TV shows. Suddenly itās all Christmas-themed. All showing unrealistically happy families.
Thereās a bunch of other reasons, but itās hard to list those. Iād just rather not be conscious during these times, just skipping it.
At least I have a dog.
Iād just rather keep going to school. I wouldnāt have to be home at least. And almost all of my teachers are nice. School lunch is also generally good. Oh, and I can take train/bus rides. Those can be quite refreshing. I can be there for hours. If the school ends sooner, I can extend my commute. So far the best one I can take extends it from just 45 minutes to much nicer 6 hours. It includes 2 city bus rides, 1 intercity bus ride, 1 train ride and some time for a walk in a city further away.
It seems like youāre going through a rough time, but that youāre dealing with it in a healthy way and set to find true value in life. You will be out on your own soon enough, and youāll do great. Time goes by very fast at least in retrospect.
It seems your parents have their set of pretty deep issues, but itās at least cute that they are making the effort.
Hold on there!
Sounds like you donāt hate Christmas, but instead the absolute fakery surrounded by piles of garbage that Christmas with your parents is. I hope youāre able to find new ways to spend time in the middle of winter doing the things you find enjoyable, with people who you find to be authentic, without mandatory gifts.
There were a lot of people I didnāt buy anything for this year because finances are extra tight. I liked that. Only bought for people that I know will enjoy and use what I got them, even though itās cheap.