You are not the only one, trust me. Google just went to shit in the last years, so it’s harder to find what you are looking for.
I’m currently trying out the first 300 free searches with Kagi. It’s only been a day but it’s already looking like I’m going to subscribe.
Remember when you got good at Google and you started to notice that you could find what you needed better than most other people? It’s a bit like that and it’s refreshing.
You’ve just made me realize I haven’t really evaluated any others.
IIRC Startpage is one of them? I might have used that once a long while ago but I can’t say I’ve given the others a fair shake yet.