So i still have depression and im constantly bored, i feel like a loser who cant do anything right. I want to let my creativeness out, make something i can share with the world or family, but im probably dreaming too big. I cant stand being depressed and bored, it stinks, everyone tells me to work out but i lack the motivation to do so.
i usually just watch youtube all day while complaining to family members that have no idea what to do about me.
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/u/ryans01: Ouch. Sounds like youāre having a tough time max. That sucks. Iāve been there, so I kinda know what youāre talking about. Iāve been in the ever circling vortex of self doubt, frustration, and loathing. Itās no bueno. I know. If you donāt mind lemme tell you a couple things. You can read em if you want, read em again later if you feel like it. But honestly man, if I spend all this time typing this out to you and you donāt let it be a little tinder for your fire, well, youāre just letting us both down. And you donāt HAVE to do that. You donāt HAVE to do anything. But you get to choose.
(Who am I? My nameās Ryan and I live in Canada. Just moved to a new city for a dream job that I got because of the rules below. I owe a lot of my success to people much cooler, kinder, more loving and greater than me. When I get the chance to maybe let a little bit of help out, itās a way of thanking them. )
Rule numero uno - There are no more zero days. Whatās a zero day? A zero day is when you donāt do a single fucking thing towards whatever dream or goal or want or whatever that you got going on. No more zeros. Iām not saying you gotta bust an essay out everyday, thatās not the point. The point Iām trying to make is that you have to make yourself, promise yourself, that the new SYSTEM you live in is a NON-ZERO system. Didntā do anything all fucking day and itās 11:58 PM? Write one sentence. One pushup. Read one page of that chapter. One. Because one is non zero. You feel me? When youāre in the super vortex of being bummed your pattern of behaviour is keeping the vortex goin, thatās what youāre used to. Turning into productivity ultimate master of the universe doesnāt happen from the vortex. It happens from a massive string of CONSISTENT NON ZEROS. Thatās rule number one. Do not forget.
La deuxieme regle - yeah i learnt french. its a canadian thing. please excuse the lack of accent graves, but lemme get into rule number 2. BE GRATEFUL TO THE 3 YOUāS. Uh what? 3 meās? That sounds like mumbo jumbo bullshit. News flash, there are three youās homeslice. Thereās the past you, the present you, and the future you. If you wanna love someone and have someone love you back, you gotta learn to love yourself, and the 3 youās are the key. Be GRATEFUL to the past you for the positive things youāve done. And do favours for the future you like you would for your best bro. Feeling like shit today? Stop a second, think of a good decision you made yesterday. Salad and tuna instead of Big Mac? THANK YOU YOUNGER ME. Was yesterday a nonzero day because you wrote 200 words (hey, thatās all you could muster)? THANK YOU YOUNGER ME. Saved up some coin over time to buy that sweet thing you wanted? THANK YOU. Second part of the 3 meās is you gotta do your future self a favour, just like you would for your best fucking friend (no best friend? you do now. You got 2. Itās future and past you). Tired as hell and canāt get off reddit/videogames/interwebs? fuck you present self, this oneās for future me, iām gonna rock out p90x Ab Ripper X for 17 minutes. Iām doing this one for future me. Alarm clock goes off and bed is too comfy? fuck you present self, this oneās for my best friend, the future me. Iām up and going for a 5 km run (or 25 meter run, itās gotta be non zero). MAKE SURE YOU THANK YOUR OLD SELF for rocking out at the end of every.single.thing. that makes your life better. The cycle of doing something for someone else (future you) and thanking someone for the good in your life (past you) is key to building gratitude and productivity. Do not doubt me. Over time you should spread the gratitude to others who help you on your path.
Rule number 3- donāt worry iām gonna too long didntā read this bad boy at the bottom (get a pencil and piece of paper to write it down. seriously. you physically need to scratch marks on paper) FORGIVE YOURSELF. I mean it. Maybe you got all the know-how, money, ability, strength and talent to do whatever is you wanna do. But lets say you still didnāt do it. Now youāre giving yourself shit for not doing what you need to, to be who you want to. Heads up champion, being dissapointed in yourself causes you to be less productive. Tried your best to have a nonzero day yesterday and it failed? so what. I forgive you previous self. I forgive you. But today? Today is a nonzero masterpiece to the best of my ability for future self. This oneās for you future homes. Forgiveness man, use it. I forgive you. Say it out loud.
Last rule. Rule number 4, is the easiest and its three words. exercise and books. thatās it. Pretty standard advice but when you exercise daily you actually get smarter. when you exercise you get high from endorphins (thanks body). when you exercise you clear your mind. when you exercise you are doing your future self a huge favour. Exercise is a leg on a three legged stool. Feel me? As for books, almost every fucking thing weāve all ever thought of, or felt, or gone through, or wanted, or wanted to know how to do, or whatever, has been figured out by someone else. Get some books max. Post to reddit about not caring about yourself? Good first step! (nonzero day, thanks younger me for typing it out) You know what else you could do? Read 7 habits of highly successful people. Read āemotional intelligenceā. Read āFrom good to greatā. Read āthinking fast and slowā. Read books that will help you understand. Read the bodyweight fitness reddit and incorporate it into your workouts. (howās them pullups coming?) Reading is the fucking warp whistle from Super Mario 3. It gets you to the next level that much faster. Thatās about it man. Thereās so much more when it comes to how to turn nonzero days into hugely nonzero days, but thatās not your mission right now. Your mission is nonzero and forgiveness and favours. You got 36 essays due in 24 minutes and its impossible to pull off? Your past self let you down big time, but heyā¦ I forgive you. Do as much as you can in those 24 minutes and then move on.
I hope I helped a little bit max. I could write about this forever, but I promised myself I would go do a 15 minute run while listening to A. Skillz Beats Working Vol. 3. Gotta jet. One last piece of advice though. Regardless of whether or not reading this for the first time helps make your day better, if you wake up tomorrow, and you canāt remember the 4 rules I just laid out, please, please. Read this again. Have an awesome fucking day āŗ
tldr; 1. Nonzero days as much as you can. 2. The three youās, gratitude and favours. 3. Forgiveness 4. Exercise and books (which is a sneaky way of saying self improvement, both physical, emotional and mental)