when i was a child, i had a tendency to extremely hyper fixate on various topics for months, so now that iβm older it just feels like iβve experienced everything even though I technically havenβt. the fixations are becoming much more quick in terms of cycles / how long they (donβt) last and i spend most of my time feeling bored and empty, just rotting away and feeling entertained by nothing. lately this has caused me to get really stuck in the past, so i spend a lot of time just laying in bed crate digging my own memories and feeling kind of depressed because i have nothing new to be excited by or interested in. it does not help that i donβt really have any long term goals or ambitions either, i just kind of exist.
does anyone else feel like this?
This is the first time Iβve seen someone else describe exactly how I have been feeling every single day for the last few years. Like, to a T.