Trying my best to find a new job asap so that I can actually take 1 or 2 weeks of summer vacation instead of just stressing over applications.
Also my cat is getting surgery today to have his upper front teeth removed because they were infecting (and already had been before). The vet said it’s best to just remove them altogether because he won’t really miss them anyway and can eat fine without. Worried about my little guy but I’m sure he’ll be okay ❤️
he should be ok to be picked up in about 4 hours yay :)
Also, great opportunity to air out the apartment hehe
Edit:
Cat is okay yay! He’s completely zonked out on painkillers lol
Got a new job after over 3 months of unemployment 🎉
Not bad.
I’ve reached the point where, as a contrarian, it’s time for me to speak less about politics online, so I started adding in filters to my Mastodon feed, and I like that my feed is less doomscrolling now.
Checked into a partial hospitalization program last week because my social anxiety and agoraphobia got too big to manage alone.
The past few days have been perhaps the first I’ve felt joy and love in their full forms 😸
that’s HUGE news! Any particular highlights or self-discoveries that you’re excited to share?
It’s just good to know true joy and exist in my body more often. It was really heavy for so long. I made small talk at a lab appointment prior to and at a haircut following group today.
The hair stylist ended up being a specialist in sensory issues so it was very nice to have that kind of chill, mindful haircut. I nearly fell asleep!
Oh! And I’m doing all this while dog tired from insomnia but I’m in a pretty good mood and getting more sleep every night 😸
I’ve been in a lot of anxiety because of politics and what’s going to happen and now after today I’m just scared. I guess I’ll have to figure out how to live once this is over. Do I just hope to continue as before with things just being worse off or are things going to change a lot?
I’ve been just trying to rationalize that most of this is outside my control and have to accept the world for what it’s becoming. I’ve already given up, I don’t want dreams I just want peace.
