Should be asleep ramble but…
Honestly, had a lot of time to think back in chemo. Wasn’t even old enough to drink yet. Caught early, pretty high rates for success… But still… Lots of time to think. Sat next to sweet old ladies with much harder fights…
I appreciate the cosmic absurdity of it all. This whole experience of brief life in a tiny blip of this stupid cosmic scale of infinity in all directions, billions of years either side… Meaning comes from what we make it. It’s the best of times, it’s the worst of times. Try to enjoy the ride while it lasts.
Find hobbies. Learn a new skill. Get lost in a book, or museum, or at a disco. Get that extra slice. Take that road trip. Learn how to play that instrument. No, it’s probably not too late to start skiing, or climbing, or studying French. Grind if you have to. Cool shit often requires luck, but those who put in the hours get lucky more.
I feed my brain new music every day, and try to add laughter to every room I’m in. Make art, be weird, find the helpers.
Much love
From one tiny universal blip to another, thank you for your message. Stay real.
Read more history, even just the last 1-200 years. Really dig in to the shit they don’t get into in school. What you’ll find is that times have always been “troubling” and if anything I think there’s a selfishness some people have when they always focus on somehow NOW is the worst time ever and NOW is when things are terrible and everything good will somehow end.
Honestly, whatever you think is “troubling” nowadays probably isn’t even new or the first time. But so many people don’t understand just how fucked up all of history has been and yet people and countries and cultures survived.
If anything, life today in general for most is far better than in all of human history. Due to advancements in technology and medicine, most people don’t have to worry about basic survival things the same way they might have even just 100 years ago.
Bold of you to assume I’m sane
Bold of you to assume Im sane.
Prozac and therapy.
Which honestly, is working. If only I arrived at this method sanely, rather than nearly ending it all and winding up in a hospital.
Glad to hear you’re on the mend, friend. The world is a better place for having you in it. ❤️
Despite the sheer absurdity and chaos of it all, glad we’re sharing this weird spaceship called Earth during these wild times.
Rooting for you. 🤙