It’s like this every year. If you know, you know.
I never really had a fondness for fucking christmas spirit or whatever so it figures I’d have no affection for anything holiday related I guess. But my significant other has both considerable trauma (bad experiences on and around the day) and and a desire for doing something together on the day.
When I moved out a few years ago, I thought finally I’d be able to do cool and original things around it, y’know build up our own little traditions. That’s a thing people do, right? But my stupidass job had me working the week of the 25th like every other year if not more, so half the time I wasn’t even off. Lmao, no spoons.
I also figured that now I’m fired due to being increasingly deathly ill, I would truly have the time and spoons to do stuff for the holidays! I can use some of that sweet sweet gubmint money what I stole from hardworking taxpayers (what a welfare queen lmao) to do something nice for us, right?? I’m sure I won’t be equally if not moreso bereft of spoons due to a multitude of things including eviction hearings, chronic pain and more???
Right???
It just exhausts me and I hate absolutely fucking everything. That bit post about banning christmas under communism is something I uncritically support. I dunno.
I fled the country attempting to escape it, but now I have to do it when I get back instead. I fucking hate Christmas.
Also there’s American Christmas songs playing on the other side of the world. I can never escape Mariah Carey.
I can’t stand that unreasonable pressure for everything to be fucking magical all on one day. Never liked it. Everyone is always disappointed their lives aren’t TV.
The lack of creativity makes everything a Hallmark Channel race to the bottom of the barrel. Dull, droll, snoozefest.
I would genuinely prefer going back to actual Saturnalia. At least that sounds fun.
It’s incredibly fake and performative. The fact that capital doesn’t even take the opportunity to reflect for a single second before continuing the meat grinder is all the evidence you need, as if the rampant consumerism and growth underlying it all wasn’t enough
Lol my work does give us just Christmas off.
3 weeks ago they announced that we will also be closing early on Christmas eve and new years eve. This only affects my shift. Everyone wad like hell yeah we get 6 hours off on Christmas eve and new years eve! Then they said it isn’t paid so I actually had to torch 12 hours of pto not to lose 15% of my paycheck the final 2 weeks of the year over the holidays. Actually sickening
It is draining and it goes on for months, I hate it too, but I try not to be too mean and shit on people that enjoy it (too much at least).
I try not to be too mean and shit on people that enjoy it
Well yeah I mean, I hope to never be misanthropic enough to just hate people for enjoying it, I don’t plan to be. Power to anybody who actually extracts joy from it in this fuckin hellscape, y’know.
I tried typing out many things and deleted them and have come to the conclusion I don’t even know how I feel about Christmas. I think my brain is cooked when it comes to anything that would typically be family related. Christmas i don’t feel many strong emotions towards i just feel indifferent but watching my bf careful wrap the 10 billion presents he got everyone is very cute
can we return to old form of christmas with the giant bonfires drinking and dancing hanging out with friends and stuff?
you know keeping morale up
