A few years ago I was trying to get into building my own small systems. I had successfully created a NAS and a Pi-hole (not exactly rocket science) and my next project was going to be a Hackintosh. I bought a $500 Chinese NUC (Lattepanda) and somehow managed to install Catalina on it and managed to run it (which was crazy to me since it had required some iffy config that I didn’t think I’d be able to get down). I then went through the trouble of building this thing into a suitcase so that it was a “laptop”, though decidedly bare bones. The next time I powered it up, it promptly burned through something, powered off, and I now had a ~$800 suitcase brick.
That one slapped me down so hard from my techy fantasies that I put away my tools and never touched another project again. My NAS & Pi-hole also stopped working after a few months, and I decided that that was enough of a sign from the universe that I wasn’t meant to be wasting my time, money and effort on something I was decidedly not intelligent or strong-willed enough to see to fruition.
I was also hoping to make it my “out” of support work which I’ve been doing for almost two decades. But with that project died my dreams of being able to rise above my own limitations as well, since I’ve repeatedly proven to myself that whenever I try my hardest at something, I’ll simply still fail eventually.
Death of Chester Bennington, ending of Adventure Time series, slowly forgetting my childhood.
Several. I’ll keep it to three.
One, was having to move out from my home state, twice. I have my fair share of criticism for some parts of it that I didn’t like, like having been around some lowly leveled towns with druggies and drunks. But there have been an awful lot of ups as well, I love it’s scenery, I love how it isn’t billboard haven like the places I’ve moved to have had and I liked the small communities. As well as my state being a very progressive state too. If only it’d correct it’s affordability problem, I would have loved to return there.
Two, the changing of the internet. I’ve been online for over 27 years now. It is depressing to watch it all devolve into a corporate marketing playground with so many subscriptions nagging you. I’ve had to watch so many good places shut down because of these increasing pressures of these changes affecting them. People I’ve known online, are either gone due to the sands of time or that they’ve passed away that I didn’t realize until I get second or third hand information about it. It used to all be a rich and fulfilling experience. But every time I use the internet now, it feels shallower and shallower. If the internet were to suddenly up and vanish in maybe the next 5 minutes, I wouldn’t complain. I’d just bow out and feel that we’ve done all that we’ve done.
Lastly, having to oust a friend of 5 years tenure for showing sympathy to pedophiles. They brought a lot of positivity and wholesomeness to my life during my time with them. We were even in a group with others that shared silliness and good times. But the past year it has been nothing but just senseless debates and one of which ended up them coming out as a pedo sympathizer which was something I just couldn’t accept because of my experiences having been entangled with pedos and dealing with them and their illogical worldview on how they see minors.
As a fan of the Atlanta Falcons, Super Bowl LI.
Other than that, it would’ve been my marching band experience my senior year of high school. We had our worst competition performances that year and there was no band trip like in previous years. Not a great way to go out.
We had two sphynx. One of them had congestive heart failure at a very young age, and there wasn’t anything to do. We kept him comfortable as long as we cold, and he made it about a year before he was in enough distress that it was time to euthanized him. A few weeks later we discovered that other one was coughing because he was in the end stages of congestive heart failure; we had to euthanize him less than a month after we lost our first. We now have another that’s been on blood thinners for about a year because he has congestive heart failure also.
About 10% of all cats have heart disease, and that can go up sharply in some breeds.
