I’ve been on a medical LOA since last year and tomorrow I go back to work and I keep thinking about how almost all my coworkers I knew are gone and processes have changed. Also that if I do something wrong I might injure myself again and be right back where I was a year ago (I have been cleared for full job duties by my doctor).
Meta destroying the Fediverse.
For perspective WordPress also uses ActivityPub. WP comprises 43% of the internet. Though these corporations may create mills of pure shit behaviour and content, catching the entire Fediverse is like trying to carry water in a collinder. If things ever feel too centralised, do your part to decentralise. Check out the rest of the Fediverse and get involved. The apps are very good, though many are early in development. Build good places and catch those that seek to escape the corporate walled gardens. Resilience comes from community, and these corporations are weak because they are inflexible with singular non humanist goals. Each time the facade cracks, more will be shed. We are kind of like the Wildlings over The Wall.
I’m concerned that spez could be right: This will blow over, Reddit users in general don’t care enough. Even a lot of us who fled here might return eventually because that’s just where most of the discussion is. (Especially for breaking news, niche topics, etc).
I really wanted the admins to change course, and failing that, for Reddit to fall, but I think it’s likely we’ll get neither, and Lemmy will remain a sidenote. (As much as it has already grown, which is amazing to see, the whole network is still like 10% of one single top subreddit)
I obviously hope I’m wrong and that the growth we’ve had in the last month will just continue.
(As much as it has already grown, which is amazing to see, the whole network is still like 10% of one single top subreddit)
You have to remember that a lot of those large subreddits are full of bots and astroturfers. It’s in reddit’s best interest for those subreddits to appear full even if they aren’t. They are trying to IPO.
The quality of discourse here is already higher even if there are fewer people so personally I think I’ll stay here until it implodes or something better comes along.
Considering that spez is championing musk as an example of good leadership I think that if not this, something else will happen. That might assuage some of your fears. Though if reddit changes it’s ways and backpedals and maybe changes leadership, it might not be a bad thing (but I seriously doubt that at this point).
There are plenty more opportunities for spez to drive off the users and content creators. The API change and forcing mods out of subs for going private or NSFW is having a snowball effect on both Fediverse growth and the garbage content on r/all.
I check every few days to see if anything’s changed and it’s just gotten worse, and I’m getting similar if not the same content on Lemmy and Mastodon.
Job worries as well. New place a lot more money. Can’t stop thinking about work outside of work. I feel like my training was rushed and I don’t really know what I’m doing. It’s all so weird. Stressed and anxious all the time because of this place.
My only bit of rational input to counter act your brain, is that: you got the job, not someone else. You’re the winner, and you can do it. New jobs are fucked… so stressful… so much doubt… so much anxiety… but you got it for a reason. You had something that no one else had.
Listen to a stranger pump you up as much as you listen to your brain. Whatever your job is, it will be second nature in no time.
/OCD intensifies
I was given a bunch of medication for muscle spasms this week and my brain keeps having the intrusive thought of “you know, all of your organs are going to shut down because of this stuff.” Fortunately, I’m self aware enough to tell my brain to stfu and relax. As far as medication goes, it’s all pretty mild stuff like naproxen lol.
As someone who has been taking a cocktail of all sorts of shit for the past three years after a spinal injury, just don’t take any other NSAID (voltaren/ibuprofen) with Naproxen. Codeine and paracetamol are okay, just no two NSAIDS if you can because it will will probably make your tummy a very sad place. (Bleeding etc)
But also, don’t listen to a strangers medical advice on a website… but keep telling your brain to STFU… you got this fellow broken buddy! Hope you have a really fast recovery
Similar… I’ve been getting some very likely nerve twinges from an injured neck, then injured by back trying to fix the neck, but my brain is enjoying going AAAAAH ITS A MYSTERIOUS NERVE DISEASE U DEAD MELPOMENE!
Health anxiety sucks.
That’s how mine was actually. I just lost the ability to run one day and it progressed from there to my hands going numb. Now I’m terrified when I turn my head to check the blind spot in my rear view. I fortunately had a great neurologist so I’m back to 95ish%
Yes! All throughout my hospital stay my brain would go off on a “what if there’s a contradiction?” and I’d have to re-convince it that I’m in a professional hospital and my situation happens all the time.
It’s a change in your reality and it’s a shift in your perspective to have this all happen at once. But beware looking back and bullying yourself. You are who your are and always have been, a label like ADHD won’t change you. Remember yo appreciate yourself even in tough times
I also lost my father around the same time that I found out I was diagnosed ADHD (actually misdiagnosed I later found out) and my brain was racked between taking care of my mother and trying to get through it myself. And then in top of all that, the anxiety of going through everyday life wondering if I’ve lost the chance to be who I wanted to be.
The only thing that helped me was telling my close friends what was going on and how much I felt like everything was crushing me. I did end up on medication for bi-polar 1 which has helped me stay more focused without feeling low.
I’m sorry for your loss my friend.
