• Finally managed to fix my gotam sleeping schedule, which a depressive episode triggered (that’s over too thankfully), i am waking up a bit too early for my liking, but i prefer it over waking up super late.
• I started using Busuu for portuguese and i’m quite enjoying it, hopefully i can start irl classes once i have some more money.
• Got rid of hella live service games i was playing + two “habit tracking” apps (Habitica and Finch), hopefully it can help me decrese my screentime.
• Wishing everyone a good start to their week 🦊🍂

Past:

I’ve hit the road twice this month 🛻 Local radio stations are pure fun; I wonder… how to set one up? 📻

This month alone I’ve interacted with more people than the entire 2022; that ought to be good. 👥

Present:

An author gifted me her novel and I’m thoroughly enjoying it 📖 Personifying the scream that is born out of systemic oppression is an interesting way to explore family dynamics in a book. 🗣️

Yet… emptiness is around again. ☯️

Future:

Plans may easily disintegrate, but we’re planning on a craftsy arternoon this week to celebrate 1 year of friendship. 🖌️

Also hoping all the food we were given on our trips doesn’t spoil… 🍊

Started HRT yesterday. I’m really, really hoping that I can end a decade-long plus dissociation and stop feeling like a walking ghost. Here’s hoping.

Last week I solicited a donation for our town’s seed library, which is hosted by the town library. They’ve never had so many seeds to give out or use for the community garden, which donates all the produce to the local schools and food bank. Here’s what ours looks like (imgur) for anyone interested in helping their local library set something like this up.

Yesterday, we played And Out Come the Wolves for Juniper and she seemed to really like it, she even started singing along with me (singing is doing a lot of lifting here, she’s not really doing words yet)

Frustrating. They changed my shift from 8am to 5am at the last minute. Spent the whole week sleep-deprived and sluggish, had to miss things I really wanted to do because every day after work I’ve basically struggled to do chores then struggled to get to bed on time. Also where I do so much walking on the job, I finally rubbed through the thighs in my last decent pair of pants, and couldn’t find a single new pair that fit me.

Psychiatrist changed the app she uses for video calls, to one that doesn’t work. Every device I tried it on just gave me a white page with a permission error. So no psychiatrist appointment, no adderall refill. That’s going to be fun.

My cat is starting to get restless with our daily walks. They’ve tripled in length and she’ll never come in on her own anymore, I have to carry her, hissing and growling, back to the apartment. The whole time we’re outside she’s just mad that I won’t let her climb the neighbor’s fence. Even though she doesn’t enjoy it, she spends all night howling if we don’t do it. I love her a lot but I’m getting tired.

At least it’s a beautiful day.