I’ve been wondering if the reason I’ve only seen small results after nearly two years is that while my levels are fine by body can’t do what it’s supposed to. And if that’s the case should I just quit hrt
You aren’t getting zero results. You are getting results, but can’t see them accurately because that’s how being raised in a transphobic society so often manifests for us when combined with mental health struggles
From my understanding how a body responds to HRT is basically down to luck. Changes can be large, small, fast and slow. The chances of seeing large changes might decrease over time but is probably never zero.
One thing to note is that we are often our worst critics. We see all the things that haven’t changed or things changed so gradually that we never noticed. These changes can be obvious to those around us while we remain blind to them.
The question I would ask is do you want to continue taking HRT? Is it causing you an undue burden or harm? Will stopping make you feel better? Will stopping make you feel worse? These are probably things to discuss with a doctor to help you come to a decision.
You have been asking us if you should quit hrt for months now and our answers are always going to boil down to no you shouldn’t. You honestly look fine imo and I think at this point you need to see a therapist because there’s only so much random Internet people can do for you.
Sky, you talk yourself into so many terrible thoughts. You’re always trying to puzzle out how to fit yourself into a terrible story you’re in the midst of telling. This is the first time I’ve gone through your post history and dug up pictures. You’re cute. I’m jealous of how god awful big your hair is. I see a lot of my neighborhood’s trans people at work. I honestly expected much worse in your pictures. You should focus on building Sky the woman on the inside. Make yourself the person you want to be on the inside. Your body will inevitably follow your heart. Your ego will inevitably shape your form. More esoterically, there are only two things: the Goddess and the leviathan. Thankfully, the creature tends to obey her commands.
I wish we knew each other in person instead of just on this hole in the wall website. You seem like the sort of troubled woman my wife gives me a hard time for constantly trying to befriend.
Everything I see, is someone who only looks like a women holding the camera nearly a full foot above here, someone who at eye level looks like a butt ugly guy in his mid 50s, with a double chin the size of a basket ball.
Forget what you see. Accept that you are currently cursed with illusion. To me you just look like a very, very sad girl. You look like the before in a before and after psychiatry, not HRT. I honestly think you’re kind of adorable. You have a very cutesy, round Midwestern girl face. But the sadness in your photos is overwhelming. I wish I could make you feel safe.
There are occasional forum posts with lab results by transwomen who suspect they may have an unstudied SHBG variation causing a preferential bond to the strong agonist E1 which some claim might generally result in a greater prevalence of the weaker agonist E2 being available to cell estrogen receptors. Some further speculate this claimed SHBG variation to be a possible causal mechanism for the three atypical sexual dimorphisms observed in the brains of transwomen.
Generally such folks say they see better results following a switch from pills to injections and orchiectomy. Please take all of this with a grain of salt. However, it could be good idea to ask your doctor about getting your E1 and E2 levels checked.
Why quit HRT? Those transwomen who came before us made due with far fewer options than we have today. A glass is not perfectly filled to just the right, perfect height or else unenjoyable!
