I wouldn’t say I despise them, but the other negative emotion I have is feeling depressed at having been a burden that they decided they wanted, of their own free will, to help me. I hate it, it’s so backward. It becomes a spiral of feeling melancholic for no reason and it just becomes a depression feedback loop.

Oh, oh yeah. And it’s not their fault either. Sometimes I just wanna scream “everyone get out of my house!!” Except it’s their house too.

In instances where infantilization is involved, yes. But nowadays I won’t go back to relying on someone who does that to me

I apologize for what I posted.

In the moment I have but afterwards when thinking about it, it’s normally more complicated.

Part of it is resentment (/embarrassment/shame) at needing help at all and I think this is something everyone feels at some point, even NTs. The feeling of being made to feel helpless is something no one likes.

Another part is frustration when someone thinks they are helping but are more getting in the way/creating more work. I think thats down to poor communication and its not surprising ASD people have problems around that.