It announced changes to the pricing of its API for third party clients
Girlfriend was thinking about breaking up with me because of it. She never outright said it or threatened it but I could feel it yk? The worried comments were becoming more like requests. I’m lucky I wasn’t in too deep, addiction has just begun to settle in so breaking out was too difficult.
She has admitted to me since that she did come very close to ending our relationship. Glad it didn’t come to that
After a lot of struggle and multiple failed attempts, I quit drinking
The first attempt I got sober for the sake of someone else but never addressed the cause of my addiction. So when they died I fell off the wagon really fuckin hard. (This was also the only attempt at sobriety where I experienced withdrawal symptoms)
The second attempt I tried to get sober my life had gotten so much worse by that point and I didn’t have any idea of healthy coping mechanisms so that one failed after a month.
The third attempt I had addressed some of the issues but I didn’t have a healthy friend group that could accept me for being sober. So that attempt failed because I didn’t want to lose my friends that I had gained.
The fourth attempt came after my doctor told me I would be dead before 30 of I didn’t stop. My current friend group (the one from attempt 3) weren’t supportive of my plans to get sober. And even told me to find a new doctor as my was apparently “too stupid”. I was beginning to show signs of liver damage pretty bad at that point so I made the call and cut them out of my life.
I got sober for me, I went from a fifth of at least 100 proof alcohol every night to zero. I quit cold turkey.
It was so fucking hard. It was literally months before I no longer had to fight the urge to suck spilt liquor off the floor when I smelt it. It allowed me to face my mental health head on and actually deal with my problems.
And over the years it has only gotten easier to stay sober.
If anyone has any questions feel free to ask.
Cold turkey. You make the time to quit “now” and not a later that never comes. It worked for cigarettes and fast food. From that point you live with yourself.
Warning though for my advice. I care little for my own happiness, quiting those were not a pleasant experience. I did not strengthen my resolve to overcome weaknesses, in bouts of depression I discarded things that made me happy for my health.
I went to work for a MS only company and had a work issued laptop.
Helped a lot with my addiction - at least for a while.
I have relapsed though and have a rack with 3 2 unit servers running that OS that I shall not mention and countless VM/Containers and docker images - I also have several VPS in data centers and run a small Lemmy instance, Blog, online shop…
Um, I think I need help again.
