I mean like… Most of the people I’ve had crushes on.
Using an old account for this for obvious reasons.
I have a crush on my coworker. I am also married so I hope it goes nowhere (I would absolutely never make the first move; for it to “go anywhere” she would have to make the first move and I’d have to have a moment of weakness).
I feel awful about this. On one hand it’s tormenting me bc society raises you to believe that you’re supposed to fall madly in love with someone, marry them and then be completely incapable of feeling anything for anyone else for the rest of your life. On the other hand, having a crush is a rush of feel good brain chemicals when you interact with them, so part of me doesn’t want it to go away yet.
Posting this bc the research I’ve done says that this is normal, but I never see it talked about, which made me feel even worse at first. Hopefully someone struggling with this too sees this and knows they aren’t alone.
Thanks for your honesty.
There was someone at my old job who I sometimes felt like she was flirting with me, but I’m very sure she’s just nice to everyone and has learned from early on that if you look at men a certain way and talk to them a certain way, they tend to hang on your words and want to help you out. She is very pretty, engaging and fun, but that was the beginning and end of it. Younger me would have been completely and utterly smitten but by the time I met her I could tell what the score was.
Well, at least you’re being honest self and not being cognitively dissonant. Honestly is always the best course of action.
Believe me, when I first caught feelings I did everything I could to convince myself that it wasn’t real. I have a mental disorder (being vague here on purpose) that makes me process crushes differently than people without it, so I hung onto that for a while.
No need to be vague about mental illness. I am pretty open about mine as I’m bipolar. Mental illness is a no-fault condition and should be neither shameful nor taboo.
I’ve had more crushes that went nowhere faster than my investment portfolio. 😆
I am physically in pain after reading that. May your upvotes climb faster than either!
There was a girl at school I was friends with who I had a crush on for a few years. We did a liiiittle bit of flirting with passing notes and she was very kind but never took an interest in me romantically. I wrote her lots of poems which she was very nice about and I was in love, but it went nowhere. She ended up dating some other guy in our year group and I thought “what does he have that I don’t?” but the heart wants what the heart wants. I don’t regret it. It was a happy non love affair I think.
I actually ended up dating a girl in the year above me and she was awesome while it lasted but she left home and our relationship didn’t survive the distance.
In the end I eventually married someone from work but it took us a while to get together because we both thought the other one was out of our league. We got together on the way back from an Ed Sheeran concert!
That’s correct - the heart does want what it wants. And I’ve often been puzzled by the same.
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