Even if I get in to bed I won’t sleep. Might as well be doing something fun in the meantime and stay up

I started turning my phone screen off occasionally and then turning it back on while laying in bed. Sometimes it gets me past the not feeling like falling asleep part and I end up knocking right out instead of dragging it out for hours becuase I don’t feel tired. Also prevents me from deciding “I’m going to fall asleep now” and turning off the phone because that never works and I end up more awake than when I was staring at the phone. Same feeling as nodding off to a TV show

This was me yesterday.

“Lemme just check [thing] to catch up before tomorrow’s meeting” Opens up youtube

Makes sense. Wanting to sleep is basically choosing unconsciousness over consciousness. Even when tired I’d rather be conscious.

i have a new trick: i convince myself, if i go sleep early quickly, i can get up at 2am and play games and watch movies until morning light. for some mysterious reason actually getting up at 2am then only works 1 in 3 times, but somehow i still feel good about it. can recommend.