meditation really helped me actually
No, the opposite, I get lost in my thoughts and forget I was supposed to be meditating :-( Same in the shower: I forget I’m in the shower and end up staying in there for 30 mins
Do people stop their thoughts?
I think so? I especially wish I could do it at night, it’s so hard to fall asleep when your brain refuses to turn off. I am so envious of people who can just shut their eyes and have no thoughts and fall asleep in a couple of minutes.
I’ve noticed that when I can fall asleep, the mind keeps working on its’ own but I slowly stop paying attention to it, like it’s talking in the background and I’m zoning out. I start by gently focusing on my exhales.
Then suddenly the mind will take me on a trip, without me even realizing it. I’m asleep.
Some nights, I do “count sheep”, but with lists, like:
“Five world capitals that start with the letter B”, or
“Twenty movies with Robert De Niro”
Yeah, that’s pretty much my experience, except it only gets harder to actually drift off the older I get.
Some nights, I do “count sheep”, but with lists…
I’ve tried lots of “counting sheep” variations, but most are too boring for my ADHD brain to be able to maintain for longer than a minute. It’s really hard to find something I’m interested in enough to be able to focus on, but not so much that thinking about it actually keeps me awake.
I have the opposite problem actually. I feel like I’m not thinking much at all (probably from a continuous shutdown) During these moments, constantly thinking and feeling seems like an improvement.
Mindfulness and meditation? As far as I understand it, it’s about controlling your thoughts and what to think (and feel). I know it exists, can’t say if it actually helps - it looks promising but requires training and persistence. Ahem… :)
This is why I love weed. It shuts the electrical jello in my skull the fuck up.
