Hey, that’s not Alyaza! (ik they’re probably busy with other stuff ty wallet for making this)

Tried to unalive myself two weeks ago, since then I’ve just been on autopilot. Last week we changed out our core switches at work. What was supposed to be a 2-hour late-night jam ended up a) getting delayed by several hours because our ER had a last-minute critical patient come in, and b) turning into a fucking 25-hour slog of our firewall deciding it was sick of our BS and taking down literally everything with it. Between that extra-long shift and my being kept up for 30 hours in an ER the previous week, my sleep schedule is absolutely toast.

Started off pride month practically in heat. Spent the last few days having a bunch of gay sex. Emotions be going wild, not sure what’s up. I feel kinda all over the place lately. Maybe I need a day to myself to introspect? Honestly not sure.

Bad. Rent is going up so I have to leave town. Probably not going to school anywhere near as soon as I planned because I don’t foresee being able to cut hours anytime soon.

I don’t even want to do all this capitalist bullshit, but I also wish I’d done it years ago so I could be stable now.

weekend before last was a two-day agility/rally training event for the dogs. they all did wonderfully! didn’t manage to get a good video of loki, but i got a few of the others.

• jean: agility
• echo: agility — her first full course!
• echo: rally obedience — her first go at this sport!

we also took the dogs trailer camping this past weekend, which they (and we) enjoyed.

Going well enough, I suppose. Made some new acquaintances and had a good time at the farmers market on Saturday. Hoping some others remember they took a card and reach out to us. There’s still plenty to do, though, and there’s a countdown running in the back of my mind until my time gets stretched even thinner.

For now, at least, I am done with the scramble to get things done for market and into the scramble to get things done when not at market.