CupcakeOfSpice [she/her]
CW suicidal thoughts, kind of a long rant
I struggle some with this because when I was young, I was taught to weave together every aspect of who I was with the church, then essentially told every part that was me was evil and rotten while every part that was the church was perfect and unassailable. Trying to separate myself from the church or faith often felt like (and often added up to) suicide. So I’ve mever really been able to fully separate for those reasons, then add in a psychotic disorder with frequent religious delusions and I’m a mess. I believe in Jesus, but I try to keep away from the science denial and queer-phobia. (personally am trans, but that was a long and painful process of discovery) I also try to let other people believe what they believe. If faith is an opium to me, then I am direly addicted to it with no way out I can see. But I’m trying to still be a good human while believing in a faith that all too often oppresses and suppresses other folks, identities, faiths, and cultures.
Everyone knows for a joke to be funny, the delivery has to be cipher text.
Blames it on “psychos” but somehow doesn’t think that affordable (or y’know, free) mental health care is a priority. Every time this happens somehow the mentally ill get blamed. Turns out psychopaths can live indistinguishably from the rest of the public and supposedly well-adjusted “sane” people can commit mass shootings or justify genocides. Maybe instead of blaming a large, marginalized group, we can improve people’s conditions so maybe they won’t do this. For kids this may be actually doing something about bullying, providing mental health care, and hiring teachers that don’t not-so-secretely hate kids.
The main hospital I’ve been to I don’t think is actually religious-themed, but I find myself distrusting it anyway because I live in small-town, Midwest. My psychiatrist doesn’t know I’m queer because I fear his reaction. The hospital assures you that they will not discriminate, but it has “My I don’t discriminate shirt is raising a lot of questions the shirt should answer” vibes. Also I have a fairly stigmatized mental illness and have had inpatient stays because of it, so I definitely don’t trust them having seen that side of them, but I feel that applies to pretty much any hospital. Long story short, I don’t really trust hospitals in general, not just religious ones.
I would be a little careful calling all these things narcissism, though. Narcissist personality disorder is a real thing, and people have no control over that. The harm these people cause to other people is not a result of mental illness, but as you said, a series of systems that discourage treating people like people and more like commodities.
