lililou

I feel you on the Christmas with family. My mom is transphobic and homophobic so I just don’t want to be around her anymore, which makes Christmas kinda hard to pass through this year as I associate it with her.

Oh no way! I started another run of Celeste recently. Last time I played was about 3 years ago, before my egg cracked. Playing Celeste with my chosen name gives me such feels.

The most transphobia I’ve experienced is honestly from my mom, which I guess is a bit sad.

I live in a liberal area and generally pass, so I don’t get much hate from people on the street at least. I know that even in this area, people can quite mean to non-passing trans women though, with a lot of stares and a few insults. I experienced the stares when I started out and it was kinda rough, but also you get used to it. I’m not sure it’s even negative attention, just attention. Pretty much everyone that I actually interacted with day to day has been nice, and once I started passing even the stares stopped.

The worst transphobia I’ve experienced has been from my mom. Each time we’ve talked about my transition, she would spew a bunch of nonsense about sex/gender, risks of transition, etc. She’s not really curious about the process, she’s just finding reasons to stop my transition somehow. Like that quote in the comment, I ended up having to justify who I am. It was exhausting, so I had to stop talking to her. It still makes me sad to have that bond severed, but honestly (as another commenter here put it) it’s not even just about the transition. It made me reflect upon a pattern of her not respecting me and my choices throughout my life.

I think most people on the street are scared to bring up the topic of gender transition just like that. They might be a bit mean, but I guess it doesn’t bother me. I am kinda airy though, so if someone spit at me on the bus, I may not notice or attribute it to something else haha. The transphobia from close friends and family really digs into me though…

Still, my life is now much better than before. I’m more present within my own body. My transition really put into perspective the lines within society and within my own relationships. They were there all along and probably would be revealed sooner or later, but I really shocked the system into revealing its nature.