I dont think it’s sleep apnea. It’s like my processing power is low,or cannot multi task

I snore rarely and get 6-8 hours sleep any day. One I think I feel good about this job , I do not need to think about work tasks at my home, and sleep within 5 minutes I lay on bed :) ( I still hate night shifts , btw ) .

Get drowsy and have to fight nodding off while driving? Do meetings send you to a seemingly impossible fight with staying awake?

Were you having low hours of sleep during these?

Oh… Thanks, mate. Let me check it.

Ok. Any online courses or videos you recommend

Yeah, most people are. Some have the luxury of not thinking of it or have lower self expectations.

Edit : Listening to rattle my cage :)

Thanks, I do have curiosity about learning like most persons I know.

What kills my curiosity are :

1. Too much basics to learn
2. Inconsistency/Lazy zone/Comfort zone
3. Family/Kids

Its like most people’s attitude ( If I am in that better place/position , I will learn more. In current place, I have to take more effort so I wont try at all ! ). So, thats a part of my dumbness .

Thanks, that consistency is what I am missing . I used to write notes. But what-if-others-see-my-silly-notes feeling also there.

Yes, I do small talk.

Sometimes I want to continue that relation. But, most times 1. I dont remember their face or parts of the talk 2. I just dont actively think about continuing ( Its like I have to put a remainder on that talk - quite dumb ? ) 3. They might be disinterested in the next time ( partly, I believe of silly way of expressing things )

Thank you for this lengthy reply ! Yes, I do have social anxiety. I do try to break it many times but inherently it is there. Without a very good reason, I will keep it in the comfort zone ( lazyness + anxiety , I guess ).

I may need a set of friends who are not judgemental.

People are different. Even if 10000% perfect matches, there will be issues in between. Just give sometime.

Multiple solutions are there, like counselling. Understanding each other plays a big role. If you are parents, you gotta hell of responsibilities and less time for arguments.

tldr, track record