Itβs that time of year again when my partner gets upset with me because Iβm not the kind of person that ever wants anythingβ¦
My partner always wants this or that. They mention things they want all the time. So I write down what I hear. Gift holidays are covered easily because I try to pay attention.
I feel bad though. I know itβs hard when I donβt talk about things I want. And when asked, I donβt know what to say. It only ends up causing me anxiety.
This is so dumb. What does a person who doesnβt want things want for their birthday?
Itβs a great idea. I did nearly the same exact thing some years ago. It helped a lot. It grounded me. Rejuvenated me. I want to be there again. TMI: since then, life has blown upβ¦ more than onceβ¦ and left me pretty mangled. Hobbies and those life giving things dissipated. Mental health declined again. I started drowning in work and survival. But slowly Iβm getting into a better place. I miss those walks with camera in hand. Watching life unfold around me. Capturing creatures living life in all their funny ways. Yes, I quite liked that. And while it may not happen in time for my bday, that craving is there and thatβs a good thing. I hope youβre able to spend more time in the here and now, with camera in hand. π