TL;DR: We had a talk because GF said she doesn’t like some behavioral stuff about me. I said tell me what it is, and maybe I can work on it. She said no, changing, even just small changes, for the partner makes no sense, better find someone more “similar”. It’s a bad signal for me because it implies she wouldn’t take compromises either. I can’t see myself being with someone who can’t talk about stuff like that and take compromises.
We’ve been together for more than a year. I haven’t noticed it myself that much during that time, but we recently had a talk. She told me that she’s unsure if we really fit together long term. Topics like differing interests and behaviors of me that disturb her. I told her I didn’t know she dislikes my behavior for these specific cases, but if we talk about it, we can work on that. I’m happy to adjust some stuff like cleanliness at my home (we don’t live together, and it’s about stray newspapers, a pair of socks on the bedroom floor and the likes, for that particular case).
I thought I proposed a good and honestly quite normal solution. Talk to each other, take compromises for my partner, accept them not being perfect. Sadly, I was wrong. She proposed that she doesn’t like the idea of me adjusting my own life for her sake. She also indirectly said it could be better to date someone that doesn’t need compromising to fit her “needs”. Obviously she didn’t pick those words, but that’s what I understood.
Now, I love my girlfriend and I obviously try to make it right for her. However, her not accepting that I’d change little things about my life for her sake is kind of a bad sign for me. She was so extremely against that, it makes me think she doesn’t feel like taking compromises either. In fact, it’s quite obvious now, she wouldn’t really take a trade-off. And I’m not here for that. While I’m mostly fine the way she is right now, I don’t think it’s possible to be together without compromises for any couple. I thought back into the past a bit and it’s true. She doesn’t really do much to find compromises with me, it’s basically just me who accepts her stance on whatever it’s about.
Also, who happily agrees with every quirk and decision their partner has? You’ll have disagreements, and sometimes it’s not about who’s right or wrong. You just have to talk about it and try to find a way around it. If it’s a huge disagreement and there’s no viable solution, fine. There are dealbreakers. But other than that, I’m sure you can find a compromise for most stuff. At least that’s how it works in my mind if you really like a person.
Right now, I’m trying to find out if I really understood her correctly, but if nothing changes, I don’t really see a future here. My two close friends that know about this both asked if I’m her first relationship, but I’m not. However, it from what I heard she was like that in previous relationships as well. But can’t be sure.
Has this ever happened to you? Am I the weird one? Am I unfairly only telling my side of the story?
Recently, two quite serious things happened in her family, so I’ve been thinking about the impact that could have. However, she’s never been good at describing her problems with me, or tbh with anything. She never seems happy with pretty much anything, always tells me how upset something made her (external events without my involvement). I don’t really see it based on her descriptions, but I assumed she just either wanted to get rid of it by ranting or she’s very sensitive to such disturbances. I did talk to a friend of hers one time, and she did ask me if I also get that feeling, so I’m not alone on that. My girlfriend also talks a lot in “signals” and usually I’m not the only one to struggle understanding them. So, for all you know, I might be picking everything up super wrong.
To be more specific about her past relationship problems, she mentioned she usually broke up with them because they just didn’t “fit” well. While everyone so far had small discrepancies like we have, it was mostly for the big stuff. For example, she didn’t think she could have kids with them (without conversation), or she thought they’re too into work (no more specifics on that one). And upon talking about, she did mention we don’t have such big discrepancies so far. I did ask if she felt like we should break up anytime soon, but she said no she wants to stay, since I only have small “problems” (obv not her direct words). Her concern is more about the future. About moving in with me, for example. Based on her financial and familiar situation, this won’t happen anytime soon, though. So, the situation is fine for now, she quite literally stated. It’s really a long term thing from what I understand.
Essentially, I don’t believe she wants out right now. It felt more like a warning that she probably won’t be able to eternally stay with me due to what I said before. At this point, it’s kind of my decision, I feel like. Invest in a relationship that might not be what I want in a couple of years, or break up relatively soon.
Of course it’s hard to be objective here. I might be talking out of my ass,
Yeah, sounds like there’s no winning unless she goes through some personal growth herself. I don’t think the things she mentioned are the actual reasons, they seem more like her signalling that she wants you to break up with her.
Not a direct statement she ever made, but she definitely mentioned she prefers being the one to say it. So I don’t think she’s actively trying to make me jump ship. I just think she grew up reading fairy tales and somehow doesn’t wanna stop believing in “true love” or soulmates or whatever brings the point across.
Yeah, that perfect guy is probably never going to show up for her. I guess you could try to be straight up with her about how relationships actually work, but I don’t know if she’d accept that from you directly. Ideally a third party sits down with her and lays it all out.
The reasons you gave seem like very minor things to stumble over, especially considering you want to fix them (like, just get a hamper for your room, and make it a habit to tidy up your place before you leave, I’m sure those are things that would serve you well whether your relationship continues with her or not).