Been high nonstop for years. I realize it’s bad for my health. But at least being high feels good.
My future is on a planet becoming increasingly unhabitable, under a government becoming increasingly fascist, doing nothing but working and still not being able to afford rent or food, never traveling, never making real friends much less finding a life partner, water quickly becoming a luxury, and with zero chance of ever retiring.
So why even bother?
I don’t do drugs except the occasional social alcohol consume. Drugs are a cancer, yes, they feel good, but thinking about the amount of people who die and suffer for them to exist, just hits me too hard. It’s different if you can get them legally, but almost all drugs are illegal in my country. Right now, there’s nothing to keep me going except for my life partner and my cats, but health and finding a good job is becoming harder at my age. Enjoy life as long and as much as you can, even doing drugs, but try to keep yourself sober once in a whole too. Do this, look for another way to enjoy life. If you are young, look for your older family members, they probably miss you.
