The gender I want to be is “Majestic Unicorn of unclear gender/sex, but decidedly statuesque in bearing”
You can see how it would be difficult for me to transition in any meaningful way
This feels like a lovecraftian story. You gained forbidden knowledge but lost your humanity in exchange.
They say you should listen to my inner child, and when I was a very young child I wanted to be a caterpillar. So far I’m accomplishing this by doing fuck all but eat and sleep.
Maybe I’m less like Franz Kafka than I thought, however I believe I should give it a little more time (just in case metamorphosis is around the corner).
Furry fandom?
The defining aspect of Therian or Otherkin was that (when I paid attention to the hilarious arguments), like transgender individuals, they believe they are genuinely the ‘other’ that they are transitioning to and are stuck in human bodies, while furries just want to be that ‘other,’ whatever it is.
What if you want to be an incomprehensible mass of circuits and blinking lights
I’ve wondered this as a ciswoman who is hetero and far as I’m aware, neuro typical.
Growing up I had all kinds of identity questions and it’s taken me a long time to both understand who I am and what I want for myself; to make peace with a few things about my personality etc.
I wonder if the struggles of trans/queer/ND people to find their identity delay those additional questions? Or are they layered on top as well?
No real point, just a musing I’ve had. Being a human is hard even when you’re already ticking boxes that society says you should.
I spent 30 years thinking I was cishet (and suffering for it). When I finally realized that I’m trans, it was like a dam bursting; suddenly everything about my identity was in question. I’ve gone from “Maybe I’m a girl” to “I’m a trans demi ND plural therian” in three years and I don’t think I’m done discovering things about myself yet.
I think it can flip it on its head, give you a different perspective and maybe sometimes give you even more solid answers.
I know who I am mostly, have kind of come to terms with everything that isn’t leftovers from the trauma of my life, but I still don’t feel like what I want to be gender wise, my body just doesn’t want that for me.
