an emotional rollercoaster for sure, I had an emotional breakthrough, I feel so much better daily, and I’m really motivated to improve myself. estrogen seems to have been a wonderful decision for me :)

… TWO months HRT (ah, ah, ah) …

So I got my GID diagnosis at last! I’m now certified Trans, for what it’s worth. Switching from DIY to prescription injections next week, yay ~

Plus a surprising (welcome) result in the Japanese election. Hope for marriage equality in the near future?

Difficult, not gonna lie. Everything’s become much more real since coming out to my parents, and while everyone I’ve told has been amazingly supportive I kinda feel like I’m trapped being who I’ve always been. Each small step is like climbing another mountain. I’m scared I might never get to finally be me (thanks TERF Island). Got a blåhaj to snuggle though so things aren’t all bad I guess

I gotta say, seeing my civil rights on one side of a coin that is actively spinning in the air, waiting for it to land on a table and reveal if I’m safe or not, is not good for my stress levels, yo.

Tricky… I finally got my first NHS appointment the other week and have to wait up to 12 weeks for the second one with a psychologist where they will actually give a dysphoria or incongruence diagnosis and (hopefully) start me on my journey. It has been a long time coming, I’m scared and apprehensive - I have a lot of internalised hatred and denial I have to overcome and I need to work hard on actually accepting myself but at least it feels like there is actual movement now.

On one plus side I was chatting to my friend’s wife the other day (I’m very much not out to anyone yet) about our mutual love of all things pumpkin spice (found a pumpkin spiced oat milk in the supermarket) and got sent a "#basicwhitegirl’ meme in return which made me happier than she could ever know…