i thought I was getting better, but I’m falling apart. I feel like a clown, I interact with people, they laugh and then turn their backs. At the end of the day I’m back here, alone, and I’m so sick.
I dealt with feeling like this for a long while. What helped me was trying to make everyone I interacted with a little happier for having seen me.
The actual advice: people want to talk about themselves. Prompt them to, then remember a detail to ask about next time.
It’s not that easy, but it is pretty simple. Your brain will try to make it seem hard. It’s literally just showing interest in others, and it’s simple and don’t let your brain make it complicated.
Now go draw the rest of the owl.
Well I like you and I’m sorry you’re going through these hardships.
I’m sorry about how you’re feeling and I hope the title isn’t serious. I’m in no position to help but I think that if this is really bothering you, you should maybe reach out to a therapist. I’ll just add something to pick your brain: maybe it’s not you, maybe the people you’re interacting with are not the right audience and you should try to find someone that better shares your interests.
I’m sorry you are feeling this way. In my experience there are ups and downs with depression. You are getting better, it takes time. Hold in there mate.
I bet if the you from a year ago, or 6 months ago could see the you now, they’d say you’re making progress. Don’t buy into your negative thoughts, let’s them pass and try to reaffirm positivity instead. Start each day with the same words: “I am a good person. I am a very smart person. I am important in other people’s lives”. Because you are.
