I’ve been on a slow but steady decline for the past several years. I don’t move at all, barely leaving my room let alone the house; I’ve taken to eating shit I order out instead of cooking meals myself; I don’t get involved with any local orgs besides sending dues every month; I haven’t read a book in months; I regularly fail to perform bare minimum hygiene. The only reason I’m able to keep alive at all is because I haven’t moved out of my parents’ house, burdening them with helping me. It would be understandable if I was living hand to mouth and had barely any free time, but I am one of the small percent of burgers who isn’t a month away from destitution and I have more than enough free time. Not to mention I receive no shortage of help.
Since I can’t blame my material circumstances, I can only conclude that I am this way because I always refuse to take personal responsibility. I know that changing myself so that I can be, at bare minimum, not a drain on society is going to take a lot of work, work that I always put off due to cowardice. Idealist as it is, I feel like I have some innate metaphysical trait that makes me this way, and the entirety of my failure to pick myself up is due to a moral failing on my part and nothing more.
How do I force myself to unfuck myself so that I can actually be useful for revolution instead of yet another useless first world lotus eater?
you can’t. you need drugs and/or therapy and good luck with that because efficacy of treatment is pretty inconsistent, western safety nets are designed to fail on purpose, and the world is fucking garbage so i don’t understand how we’re supposed to be anything other than horribly depressed in the face of capitalist hegemony
You might want to chat with a licensed therapist, if you have the option. If you’re having difficulty with motivation and things don’t make you happy like you feel they used to (plus the other things you said), you might have depression.
If so, things like exercise and diet can help a lot. But they may not always and talking to a pro can really help.
If so, things like exercise and diet can help a lot.
fuck yeah people having motivation problems should just do these two difficult high-motivation tasks!
i did not expect to see this fucking much “your bootstraps” bullshit on goddamn hexbear
Depression runs a wide range of severities, OP was asking for advice, and I also recommended therapy because OP didn’t mention they had gone to it nor did they directly refer to thinking of this as mental health at all. Instead, they were directing negativity at themselves.
Please remember that there are no one-size-fits-all approaches.
Are you the average Lemmy dev? No wonder why lemmy sucks. What a loser, the commie revolution will never happen you deadbeat tankie.
I don’t have any good advice really.
For me, taking long walks always helps to center myself and emotionally stabilize. I try to have two walks of at least 20-30 minutes each day
Also, I think breaking routine by taking a trip getting a change of scenery is good. Can help see things from a new perspective.
I’ve heard this called the death ground strategy by Robert Greene. There’s probably a lot of merit to the idea.
OP: Please don’t put yourself in physical danger in the hope that it will magically cure your mental illness. Camping is a fine hobby. It is not a substitute for professional medical care.
Encouraging suicidal behavior is not a responsible way to address people with symptoms of major depressive disorder.
It’s not suicidal behaviour, it’s the opposite, it’s living.
I very much get where OP is coming from. In this situation, it feels like others are living for you, so you lose your purpose and your drive. You need to take action, but you can’t because your circumstances don’t necessitate it.
So you change your circumstances. You place yourself in a situation where you need to take action to survive. And by taking action, you get used to taking action. This is how you build discipline and motivation.
Not to mention it’s not really dangerous because you can just go home at any time.
The mod removed it but I’m assuming this is kinda the daredevil route?
Not trying to insult just curious as to the thought method in your initial post.
