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My week was alright. Got my bass a couple of days ago (although I have to wait for the amp) and have been having fun with that. Been doing a lot of backbreaking manual labor for some extra cash, which isn’t entirely pleasant but builds muscle and I get money. Got disoriented from the first half of the week being much busier than usual.
I’ve been hella ill >.<; Didn’t manage to accomplish much except digging around in discouragement and having one of my fun little freakout things where I just kinda panic or something for a sec. Cleared up my sinuses for a bit, at least 🤷
Found a really cool song, though! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9jXA-atvAM
Got knocked down by the shower again 😅 Was hoping to make a trip to pick up meds and food today, but now I’m not quite sure I can do that without being sick or something outside ( 🙀 ) somewhere <.< I need a replacement head, with better sinuses and brain and face and stuff. Oh, and hair. Need some decent hair 🤔
Oh, my prescriptions are moved up here now. CVS has been blowing up my phone bugging me to go get them, but ill v.v Also apparently there’s no way to get the to stop deadnaming me (which is extra fun 'cause they text me so damn much). Doesn’t seem to be any way to do that with Walgreens either… maybe there’s some secret trans-friendly pharmacy hidden around here somewhere, somewhere capable of managing a whole two names per person 🙄 grumblefuss
What else? Idunno. Maybe I’ll blab another wall of stuff later 😅
I too wish for sinuses (and a nose (and a brain)) that worked 😅 inhales… loudly
My nostrils will physically seal themselves overnight sometimes, one more thing for the “I should see a doctor about this when i have some money set aside” (yay family history of sleep apnea and umpteen-million other things)
Bought the most amazing ingredients for burritos cuz my crush was coming over last week. But… I just didn’t feel it anymore 💔 and I broke it off with her. Now I’m eating burritos every day while crying 😭❤️🩹
I started HRT so pretty great 😅
It has been a week, I guess? It was 50 degrees and comfy out like, days ago, and now it’s fuckin 85 and I’m sweaty and I hate it.
Micro center wasn’t closed this weekend (why did a tech store need to close for a religious holiday???) So I have a microphone now to curse ears with my voice if Im not-anxious enough to actually plug the thing in.
Much procrastination has been accomplished. Got a pile of things in my fridge to cut up and either eat or vacuum seal before they go bad, a pile of dishes to wash, and a pile of crap I forgot to do at work last week due to anxiety and not asking questions about how to do my job 🤯
All I heard is you have noms and you’re ready to join Crabuddy (crabboycrabstaceanImean, cowboycrustation) and I playing some Geo/OpenGuessr >:3
Roughly 10 pounds of (cored) jalapeños in a bowl, 3 Napa cabbages, and a giant chunk of ginger root. Oh and a 1 gallon jug of Sambal Oelek (Thai chili pepper paste), a quart jar of Sauerkraut, and about 10 bratwurst.
GeoGuessr is fun :3 if I can recognize the language on a sign I can usually get within a couple hundred miles of the location, or terrain if it’s in the US
