I hope you all are having a good day. I would like to start by saying that I’m the “can’t take compliments” guy who posted a while back about how he “can’t take compliments”. I’ve been thinking about something for a while. That being the situation in the title.
Now, there is a girl that I really like. Let’s call her Cass. Cass and I are very similar. We both share similar interests. Reading books, discussions about philosophy etc. But we are also similar character wise. What I mean by that is that we both like to make jokes and are great at it too, etc. etc.
I am comfortable around girls. No issues with that. But I’ve been just really, really, shy around her. To the point where I straight up leave the room if I see her. For a person such as myself, this is a pretty odd behavior. Because I give zero crap about what other people think of me.
So instead of endlessly questioning myself, I decided to use this as an opportunity to think.
Why do we humans do this? Cass is perfectly capable of getting along and understanding me. So why am I nervous around her? Is it because I sub-conciously put Cass on a pedestal? Even though it’s kind of illogical considering she’s a very pick-me girl with mental issues? (For clarification, I did not mean these parts of her character when I said that we were similar. But who’s to say I’m perfect?)
This has been bugging for a while. Low self-esteem? I have plenty of it. Fear of being judged? Might be if I really am putting her on a pedestal.
So… what’s your opinion? I might make a post about her situation one day. Because she’s certainly an interesting person. It’s interesting how depression can destroy someone.
I think it is probably related to the fact that upsetting your crush has higher stakes than upsetting a random person.
I’ll tell you exactly why this is for me, at least. When you’re exploring a New Romantic option and that person isn’t totally sure if they are into you or not, you can say one wrong stupid thing and ruin your chances of getting with that person. Also with a crush, who usually you don’t know super well, you don’t know what things might be the wrong things to say to that person.
This is why the “don’t talk ask questions” strategy works so well for flirting. It makes you seem interested in them (and you should be) and also prevents you from fucking the whole thing up with your big stupid mouth that meant to tell a funny joke but it accidentally came out racist or some shit.
I think you already gave yourself the answer in your own case:
Because I give zero crap about what other people think of me.
This applies to people that aren’t in your inner circle. You want HER to be in that circle and suddenly it actually does matter what SHE thinks of you. You have little to lose with people you don’t really care about, but everything to lose with people you do care about. It’s an evil social twist that makes everything so complicated. High self-esteem is just the ability to quickly pull yourself up when you fall and the knowledge that you actually CAN do so. It mitigates the risks of “putting yourself out there”.
I think it could be being scared of doing something wrong subconsciously.
But what do I have to say here? I can barely speak to a cashier after 30 minutes of thinking what precisely to say and building up the courage, even if it’s just “Hello. … I’ll pay by card.”
Ehh. I worked retail both at stocking and tills and honestly you shouldn’t worry about it, I’d forget customers almost right away especially because the queue builds up and my thoughts were “oh, fuck I hope I’m not taking to long scanning. I hope I’ve scanned it right. I hate counting change. I hope I’ve given the right change. Shit I haven’t now I need a manager to come over so the till can be opened so I can give a fucking 10p.”
As you can see I hated working tills.
I’d guess that it ultimately boils down to a fear of social rejection and a fear of missing out on an opportunity to mate.
Our brains haven’t evolved to keep up with modern society. Back when our brains evolved, social rejection meant we’d be dead. Literally death. That’s why embarrassment, shame, and fear of rejection can be so powerful. They could mean death.
As well, we could die at any time. So missing out on a chance for our genes to be passed down to the next generation? Well, we can’t die before that happens! We need to make this crush work NOW so we can turn it into a relationship, or at least a mating session, and pass on those genes!
