The life is inherently unfair and the structure many people seek is nonexistent or outright a lie.

Many people put big hopes in a dream they just have to get good marks in school and learn and work hard and they will be rewarded but it has never been my experience. You either born lucky or not, roulette.

Many in my class were born less intelligent, poor and worked very hard and still couldn’t understand what I understood very fast. It was unfair. I watched them struggle and it was uneasy deep down.

This awareness honestly has been very painful all this time and I have yet to find some kind of cope other than leaning into it and just becoming callous beast. It’s the easiest way out