After a 2 year break, I’m going to start laser hair removal on my face again 🥰. Also turns out I was massively overpaying before. Groupon is the way to go
Kinda hasn’t been going. There’s not really much I can do given my current situation, so I’m mostly just waiting for college (which is in 2 years).
There is some stuff that I “can” be doing, like voice training, but I just don’t have the energy or willpower to do so. I’m trying my best, and recently my best has just been getting out of bed in the morning.
Overall, has been going pretty terribly. But I have hope that it’ll get better in the future when my situation isn’t so sucky.
Edit: Oh yeah I did get a therapist. They are basically everything I could ever ask for. Trans (nonbinary), ADHD, Autism (SELF DIAGNOSED which is huge), and just in general I really click with them. I don’t think I could’ve gotten any better.
Pretty well. I would say face and body hair are my current biggest issue but even then I’m in a pretty good place.
Amazing. Especially the social part. Like, I finally just get it and how I feel like I want to communicate just fits right in. With guys it just felt kind of stunted somehow and I could never live up to their social expectations.
For example as kids the guys would ask me what football team I was for. Ajax, pvc or feijnoord (I am sure I have the spelling wrong). Well, I didn’t care, but I showed some interest. I remember seeing the logos and just thinking about their visual style, color combinations and so on. But they were all so pretty in their own right, so I couldn’t choose in the end because they were all pretty.
It’s like trying to connect two cogwheels but they just don’t line up right.
And as an adult this created so many issues. I absolutely adore going to the market and striking up conversations. Of course guys do that too, but somehow it just didn’t work? Like I don’t know, it was as if they felt I wanted something from them and they were confused. So I couldn’t really explore it, even though I knew it made me happy.
And now it’s so simple. I’m constantly making good contacts, especially with women. And the connection with kids is off the charts and finally it’s just simple and straightforward.
Like it was as if before I had to hold back all the time. It felt terrible.
Now the long journey of detangling and unknotting my emotions starts. It’s causing me to dissociate and go numb, and it’s hard to focus on them with all the stress in my life.
Yup. There’s definitely a lot more inherent trust strangers have for you when perceived as a woman.
That and also that quite frankly our society has serious issues with homophobia.
So what IF a guy smiles at another guy and is just being friendly and wants to have a nice chat? Like it’s immediately seen as a sexual advance! Omg if you’d just punch the guy out of the blue he’d be less upset.
Not to forget to mention that this sort of culture also gets in the way of men simply talking with women in a respectful manner, giving her a chance to safely get to know him, and as a result getting a more fulfilling love life 🤦🏻♀️
Didn’t think I had any more egg left to crack, but I’m feeling very called out here! Generally unable to keep up with guy-talk, but get on really well with women and children. And you say transitioning gets you more of this? Bring it on!
🤠 “Yah so I used to run iron mans and one time I punched someone while swimming. Omg at the finish line I totally had to keep going otherwise we’d definitely have gotten into a fight!”
😐 “…”
🤠 “I’m a survivor I once ate a duck because I was too proud to take the food from my friends”
😐 “…”
🤠 Stares at someone’s ass “Raaaawwrrrrrr”
😐 “…”
(disclaimer: based on reality but of course just extreme examples)
Waiting…
… for my hair to get long enough for even a short feminine cut. I don’t really feel like wearing a wig, but I guess I might try a cute headscarf.
… to lose weight. I’m going about as fast as I safely can, and it’s noticeable, but there’s still a lot to go.
… for hair removal. Seeing the effects already, but gotta wait at least a month between appointments.
… for hormones. First appointment in six weeks or so. At least there’s DIY as a fallback.
But! I’m out to my family, and my immediate coworkers (I work from home anyway). So I can wear what I want, practice my voice and makeup, and things are good. I don’t wear anything more boyish than women’s jeans and a semi-fitted T-shirt (OK, fairly neutral), and I guess I’ll just tell anyone who asks. Just wish I could see in the mirror how I feel.
